I find myself walking through Amethyst fields collecting crystal water. Wishing that this place was as real as it is in my dreams. Yet I wake to a world with colors of a hurt place. Not the shimmering crystal or the brilliant purple. I call my place eternity. For it is eternally in my thoughts and heart.
My name is aurora like the aurora parallax that was shinning over my birth mother when she gave me life. My first and last memory of her was when I was 5 . She told me that my blue eyes were of that precious blue in the sky the night I was born. But soon after the red and yellow flames claimed my mother and father. While I was at my grandmother’s house. When I was 6 my grandmother had gotten custity of me. It was hard for her because I reminded her of the daughter that she lost. Yet she says that I always was her daughter. The one that would keep her young and quick. She joked when I would get a little hyper …that she was getting to old for this.
When I reached the age of 16 I was still that hand full. Full of dreams and hope of a place bursting with love and light. Also I had to go to a new school which was so different and new. Well I lived closer to the lights in the sky now . But I never felt more alone and lost, then I did at that school. Yes there was a lot of teen boys looking at me and I assume that they were thinking of me to. But none of them talked to me, grandmother said that it was because I was a new beauty to them. That they may have not seen an indian with such blue eyes. The ones that would go as sliver as murkier if I was getting angry.
So it went on like this for a while. I sat alone worked alone and even talked alone. Then one day there was a boy who looked a lot like a man. Had gotten to my table before me, he was beautiful to say the least. So I walked up to the seat across to him. But he just sat there reading his book that read “white fang” by jack London. I thought it was a little funny that a boy of his assumed age was reading a kids book. He most have seen my smile because he defended his book” you never get to old for a story of freedom”. then he looked up to me, and I could imagen the reds that fevered me tan skin. Then I quickly looked away just in hope that he didn’t see. But as usual was to slow. “why do u sit here all alone?” he asked. When the red that dimmed down I said” well I don’t mean to I just came to this school and I don’t really have friends.”
“ I’m sure you have friends” he said it more like a fast then a nice gaster. And for a moment I let myself think that he might know of my friends in eternity but as quickly as it came it went. I did not want to make this could be friend think I’m mad. Yet something in his eyes tould me that I could tell him every thing. “ I do have friends where I use to live”. which wasn’t such a lie sence I come and go in eternity. A thought came to my mind ‘here I am answering this guys questions when I havent even told him my name. “ I’m arura by the way… whats your name?” he smiled again and said” my name is drake like the dragon” .

My mother’s family came form a long line of vampires. She had me before it was her time to take hold of the family legacy . “Is there no other way” I said in a whisper. Then just then a black figure appeared in the cool darkness. It took my breath away. He was unlike any other I ever seen. From a different family of cores. “ you have no right this is the way it will be” my aunt said with great demand. “Who is this man, where did he come from” I wondered to myself.

I was startled when he jerked his head towards me. As if he heard what I was thinking. Which is impossible, or is it? Then he spoke both answering me and my aunt. “She still has another choice she can choose, or would you deny her that ? And my name is Derke, its nice to finally meet you star.” For the first time my aunt was silent then she said “I will give the child three weeks to decide ”.All the strange beautiful man did was nod and looked at me. “What is going on ? Another choice what would that be? And why does he look so good.” I stopped right there in thought when the man smiled at me. He most have some power to read minds. “ Dear aunt what is going on, is there another choice for me?” I asked my aunt with wonder in my eyes.

After a good five seconds my aunt replied “Yes there is my dear, it is the same one your mother had to choose”. I had, up to that point forgot that my mother was even with us. I looked over at her, she was looking at the moon. The light glided off the too pale skin. “ Mother what does she mean what chose ,you had another-”. Cut off again but this time it was by my mothers cool hand. I looked in to her light blue eyes, and if were possible they would have tears in them by the way they looked. She took her hand from my lips. She spoke in a tender voice” yes there is , oh my dear sweet child” she was trying to sooth me. ”There is you can have a love and a child just like I did.” I stood there dazed maybe a little in shook too much information for the last ten minutes.

***

“So there was a way I could postpone becoming never more to the sun which I loved so dearly” star thought hopeful. Bev turned to my mother “you would let your child have this choice Rose?”. Without moving her hand from me rose spoke her answer” I would left my daughter have this gift yes ” . “Yet it has to be her chouse and hers alone” Rose added. she looked into my eyes so thoughtfully. “My child this isn’t something to take light birth is the opposite of what is in your blood it will cost a great deal of pain and change for you”. Breathing in my first breath since I was informed of the great news. “I would like nothing more , but what does this mean for the true change then, will I still be able to have a love as well as becoming ageless?”. Rose frowned “There is a way you could have both but it costs more than haven a child my dear, you would have to choose a love , that already a vampire”.

The man suddenly smirked like he was thinking in his head “pick me pick me” . Well even though he was the most beautiful thing … I mean person I had ever laid eyes on. I still had no clue why he was really here. Or why he of all people would interrupt my changing night. “What are you really here for Derek?” I asked in a matter of fact voice. He held his smirk and spoke” I’m just her to enlighten you on your will, what there is and what there could be star that is all” he ended with an even more unnerving smile. I had to know so I went with my feeling that he was a mind reader and thought “why this night and what is in it for you ?”. Then just as I thought it he answered in thought “because this is your last night to choose I thought they had told you before this night. As for what is in it for me . Why don’t you tell me ?” I gasped and stupidly spoke the words “you think for one moment I would make this choice and you would be my love. The father of my child. and I don’t even know who you are or if you’re some kind of danger to myself or my family!” Just as quick as I said it I knew I shouldn’t have .

My mother came flying at Derek with uncaning speed and knocked him on his ass. “She will make this of her own will not for your benefit you outcast!” That last word did my mother just say out cast? Derek got back to his feet and brushed off his jeans . “I was only outcast because I chose to be not because I did anything against our code” he said in a proud tone.

***

Maybe this was just getting to much for one evening. But here I was the night I was spouse to become a full vampire. Then some hulking handsome outcast of a vampire comes to interrupt, and tell me that I can procreate. Adding my aunts temper , to all of this was just too much. “I don’t mean to dampen anyone’s fire, but I m still human here so can we save this lovely “event” and fighting until tomorrow night.” I said half trying to comprehend what just happened and really feeling tired from it all. ” Yes dear “ my mother said “this can be for another time”. She said glaring strait at Derek. Who was still looking at me like I was sort of amusement. My mom put her hand on my back leading me back to the castle. I couldn’t hold in my question any longer.” Rose why when you said what it will cost did you frown?” I asked tenderly.

She just looked out at the sea and the moon and spoke “Dear daughter I was young once any naive and I was made aware of that very same chose. I didn’t ask the same questions you did just now. I fell in love with your father. We were so young and so deeply in love. The only thing was he was human , just like you are. I thought I could have it all . Love and a daughter. Until the day you were born, then I found out from my mother. That I wouldn’t be able to have my love. She said it was to risky . You see I was to become a vampire and my love was but a human man and my heart would stop beating . But his wouldn’t so the temptation would be too great to feed off him. When a vampire feeds off a human . The human loses a part of themselves.  I loved every part of your father.” She looked at me with eyes so glazed ‘I had to choose I knew I would become what I was meant to be and your father would not stop looking for me.” She paused for a brief moment “So I had to take away that time we had shared from his memory he only knows he loved but not who he loved.” She looked hurt in the worst ways. “Lets go star we need you to rest “ She said leading me up the stair case.

***

As I lay in bed that night I couldn’t stop thinking on what just took place. T was midnight so I knew my aunt and mother would be up . Yet after I saw how my aunt was acting. I didn’t want to be near her at this point until I find out more about what my choices are. And my mother had lost her usual glow after she told me about my father. I couldn’t cause her more pain by asking more questions .  So I thought a question and I was hopping that Derek could hear me  even though I didn’t really trust him . I needed to know. “Why did you choose to be an outcast ?”

I laid there in the dark and ten minutes had went by. I was about to give up and try to get to sleep . When I was startled by a rap on my window. I looked through the dark room and saw no one at the window then it stunned me. “do you want to know the answers to all the questions going around that pretty little head of your , Star?” he said in a voice that was different then the one he had used with my aunt or mother. This one was kind and something in it made me think he truly meant no harm. I got up and went to the window , but before I opened it I said “why cant I see you , you know a person could think she is crazy?” he replied laughing the sound was beautiful and short “well I would have grown wings and shot up here , but I thought this would be better because of how your aunt and mother would react when they found out that you called a strange man to your room at midnight”. I opened the window blushing.

She knew he was right but also found her cheeks getting hot. Cause she hadn’t thought this all the way through. She let him in her room. He was smiling again which made Star feel nervous among other things . So she went for the right hook “ok I asked you a question now can you please answer me?” she asked. Derek crossed the room to her bed and sat “you want to know why people call me an outcast do you?” he said  making him self at home and laying back on the king size bed. Which made Star have to hide a blush by turning away “yes I do” she said quickly. He sat up slowly and answered “well I was what they would call a rebel I did what the code asked of me . But there was one thing that I hadn’t liked and swore not to do so they banished me .”  “that’s it ?” Star asked turning around . “you know if you want to have anything to do with me then your going to have to trust me enough to not hide things” Star added. He just looked at her amazed like she had said something that simply surprised him.  “I thought you were a smart girl Star but I wouldn’t have thought you were so bold , not that I’m complaining  I mean I like upfront people. Its naturally a sign of a strong will and strength all around” he was still avoiding what she had said , and she knew that he knew what he was doing.

It was said that angels and demons were to never fall in love with each other. There was one case of this in history. An angel named Pre and a demon named Gier had a love affair. This union was damned from the beginning but the great ones said there love was pure. So they did not damn pre or Gier at first. Pre was said to be the most beautiful angel that was ever created. She was also the kindest of angels to , she never turned anyone away. The way the other angels would when they disapproved. To prove her kindness she soot out to help even the damnist of souls.

Little to her knowingness a demon heard of her quest. Gier was his name but he thought he was beyond any help that even this angel could bestow. Because he had no soul but when he met with this beautiful creature. She did not turn him away and to both of their surprise. She did help him more than they ever expected her to.
They started meeting in privet more and more. They fell in love they knew that it was against the great law to love.  They tried to keep it hidden and it lasted for a while. Till the day pre came to Gire and told him of the news that she had.

Per was pregnant and the baby was growing rapidly. This had never happened before so both of them did not know what would come of it. This baby would be different yes but how different. Per had not been going to the sky in fear that this man and soon to be infant . Would be found out about she did not have to go to the sky . The great ones saw what was being formed. They saw it as an abomination an evil span with an angels powers.

So the day that this child was born. The great ones descended from their home in the sky. Per and Gire were waiting for them in a cave on the shore of Molara. One of the inlands of the crystal sea. Whit baby in hand pre went to met them on the beach. She did not think this would end well but she had to save them. Her baby and her beloved.
“ We will not let this child live per it’s an abomination” the head great one named Brem said. “ This child was made from a union of love Vera will not die” pre said with a strong voice. The great ones were astound that this child had a name. Berm spoke again “ You have named this child?”.” She has a soul and with a soul so be given a name” per answered.

I had a good life at least the parts of the I could remember. I had a wealthy father and a kind-hearted mother. One dear little sister named Kate short for Kathryn. My father’s name was Maxwell Hunterson , my mothers was Elaine. Witch brings me to my name Sharon Hunterson.

I became this thing on the eve of my 19^th birthday. When my maker came to my birthday party as an unwelcome guest. She was possibly the most beautiful woman I had ever laid eyes on. With that one look I began my new but doomed life. The night I fell under her charm, my dear sweet Kate found me in the court-yard. Laid on a stone bench dying but being reborn at once. The fear in her eyes must have been the reflection in mine as well. She did not want to leave me but I told her that she must. She walked away with her back to me. She only looked back once, and that face haunts my memory she did love me even after my death.

At first I was in a haze always thirsty and the anger, oh the anger . Not really knowing which was worse. Or which had more power over me. The thirst was a burning in my lungs , not like hunger but like someone set fire to my throat. The anger was a knife rapidly stabbing me in my no longer beating heart. This went on for a good ten years. And for thousands of night’s I walked this new world. Bewildered by the things I was missing, with these eyes , colors had more to them. I could almost see the wind with these eyes. This noise oh this noise, it made every smell hold more. I could smell my pray’s emotions even if it was unknown to them that they were feeling anything.

I was strong , I had speed that not even a cheetah could compare . I was beautiful, wait that’s a understatement for the way I looked. I mean I was beautiful before but I had an exotic beauty now. Yet I did long for my old life . With every year and with the years the memories faded . Except for the one of my sister the one I could never for get the only true love I had ever known. She grew older had her loves . I watched over her like the night she looked after me. I grew mad at the men in her life almost envies. She was my little sister but she held my heart and that would never change. She thought I had died so I had to be very careful to not make myself known . She had two precious children by the time she was 25 . Her husband was the one man I could see fit for her to be with. I never did meet him of course but he treated her right. Her little girl did not resemble her at all . The little girl shocked my sister and I when she came to look like me in every way. The little boy looked like her in so many ways he had her brilliant red hair and green eyes. While his sister had my long black hair and green eyes.

There came a night that broke my heart so bad I wanted to kill the until able which was death. While I was away one night from my usual post out side of my sisters large window. A fire had started from the candles in the office it reached my beloved sisters room first . It killed her and her husband with in seconds. I had got there just in time to burst in through the door. I already knew that my sister was no more. The children were still alive I could feel them. As I ran though the house I found the boy and girl. I rushed them out of the house. They were scared and as hurt as I was for losing their mother and father. I walked them back to my home it was not as grand as my late sisters was. The kids seem to like it very well.

While doing some cooking the girl whose name was Staris had asked the question. That I had no real way to answer. “ Who are you and how did you know my mother”? she was young then almost 8 and her younger brother 5. I hoped that they would not be frightened by the only answer that I could give them. That I was their aunt , their mothers older sister. And that when I was 19 something happened to me that I can’t change. I also told them that I would never change , I’d always be here for them and their descendents after them.

As I had expected and feared. Staris had a shocked expression on her face. Yet it did not last long. “So you’ll never leave us?” she asked. I showed the same shocked face. Then replied “ I will not leave till you ask me to my dear”. She then hugged me around the waist . “ I never want you to go auntie” she said in a sweet tone. That reminded me so much ,of her mother. Yet after she said that I had a sinking thought. “I would never be able to leave,, but they would leave all to quickly for me”. I looked down on her with such kindness. Hoping that my thought would just go away.

         #4: Time spent only looking into each others eyes, and maybe get a glimpse of their soul.#5: Two bodies so close together that we are as one. #6: Shoulders that my hands fit into like magic. #7: Hearing a heart beat from the one laying right beside me. #8: To feel skin upon my skin. #9: Lips that taste just right. #10: Fingers to glide my face, like a boat on still waters.

        I’m not asking for a husband to marry. For me if I could feel any of these things, even if only once. Then I’d have all that I need. These are the things that will keep me living. See I don’t need money. A house, a job, sex, or a god to pray to. All of these things mean nothing if I didn’t have a taste of numbers one through ten.The money would lose value. The house would never be a home. The job would be no fun. The sex would suck! The god, well I wouldn’t have anything to pray for. Do you see, why I or you would need things like these?

By: Samantha m, Moore

Here something to think of . If you my readers have watched ” The Lovely Bones” what would you have done in her shoes? I don’t know what I would have done. Any ideas?

       I’m now 18 and have all the right to be a mother , or so they tell me. I mean I have the healthy body, the caring nature.  Do I really have what made my mom so motherly… well I guess in a way I do and in a bigger way I don’t. My mother has 7 children and only one living with her.

       For most of my childhood she worked and played. She took the role of mother , and when dad wasnt around . She took on “father” too. She was what I now call a “childless” mother. Her oldest kid is 20 and her youngest 4. She took on being a mother at the age of 16. When she in all knowledge was still a child.

One more breath of yours

One more heart beat heard

One more time to feel you

One more touch from you

One more word you speak

One more whisper in my ear

One more night with you

One more letter from you

One more phone call

One more is all I want

And all I need

Under the moonlight

Kiss me

Behind the water fall

Kiss me

On the swing set

Kiss me

In my tree house

Kiss me

In the wet, wet rain

Kiss me

After the morning dew

Take your pick

Just kiss me